“The desire to reach for the stars is ambitious. The desire to reach hearts is wise.”
― Maya Angelou
I’ve decided to leave my job at the end of this month, a decision I’ve made with no regrets. My primary reason for joining this company was to gain experience as a programmer. Although the company hoped I would develop my lifelong career with them, my salary has remained nearly unchanged since I joined four years ago, leaving me with little reason to stay. Additionally, my bilingual abilities in Japanese and English have motivated me to explore other roles. Through LinkedIn, I have received offers for various positions, both from recruiters and directly from talent acquisition teams.
The issue is that despite receiving scouting offers for various roles, I haven’t been able to fully capitalize on these opportunities due to my limited skills. Moreover, over the past few months, I have developed depression, which ultimately led me to resign from my current job. Additionally, my commitment to this company and my work-related schedule have hindered my ability to explore other opportunities.
I’ve always wanted to upskill and reskill myself but found I didn’t have the time to do so. Despite the availability of numerous attractive Udemy courses that have the potential to instill cutting-edge knowledge and skills, my limited time prevented me from exploring them. I’ve questioned whether I’m wasting my time and why I should continue allowing myself to be mistreated. The answer became clear: it’s time to leave and show the world who I am.
During my upcoming journey, filled with many interviews, I might get hurt by their choice of words or their decisions not to employ me. Nonetheless, I have to make a decision sooner or later. Staying with my current company is hard, and embarking on a new journey to explore new roles will also be hard. I need to choose the path that is less hard.
Since this is my last week with my current company, I should have been studying programming and preparing for upcoming interviews. However, I’ve struggled to pull myself together over the past few days due to ongoing depression, which has hindered my productivity and ambition.
In the past, I was quite ambitious and had many goals, looking forward to a brighter future. But somewhere along the way, something went wrong, leading me to where I stand today.
Indeed, where there’s a will, there’s a way. Today, as you may have noticed, I’ve posted four algebra tutorials. While this may not directly relate to programming skills, solving algebra problems has somehow boosted my ambition and energy levels. As I’ve mentioned before, engaging in activities that diverge from others’ realities provides me with immense potential and confidence.
I can’t transform myself overnight, but I can always make gradual changes. You see, you’re always just one decision away from a completely different life. It all begins with a single step and starting from scratch. Determine what you want to do with your life. No matter your age, you can always start anew if you believe that life is filled with mysteries and potential. The choice is yours.
Let us begin…