Self-reflection – Late November 2022

“Grief does not change you, Hazel. It reveals you.”
― John Green, The Fault in Our Stars

Don’t underestimate what a year can do for you. The year 2022 is nearly ending, and we’ll soon embrace the whole new year. What have you achieved during this year and where are you heading? The world economy is on the brink of recession, and world news we’ve seen in recent days make us feel pessimistic about the prospect of our future and the lives of the next generations.

So, let me ask you the same question one more time. What have you achieved during this year and where are you heading? Life is too short to contemplate our misfortunes and past traumatic experiences. The whole world is now heading towards the unknown, and maybe it’s time for us to think about how we make our lives meaningful regardless of the current situations.

A major shift in blogging style

Here, let me get to the main point. If you’ve been following my blog for a long time, probably you are a little confused about my recent programming/Linux-focused posts. Yes, my blog used to be all about how I view this world and share my thoughts with you. But my recent personal activities are now revolving around tech, especially, Java, C/C++, Android, and Linux more than ever. And I just realized that by sharing what I’ve learned through my self-tech education, not only am I be able to understand what I learned but also my readers can benefit from my explanations of tech through my writing.

And I pretty much understand that tech isn’t for everyone. But still, my blog has been embodying my interest and who I am over the course of time, and it is a natural evolution of my blogging style. Also, please know that this doesn’t mean the death of my traditional way of writing. I’ll keep writing about my thoughts on this blog’s main topics: democracy, freedom of speech, and basic human rights.

Technology first

Ethical writing has been shaping the deepest core of Canvas of Dreams since its inception and it has been an integral part. And it will always remain that way. However, as I mentioned above, since technology has been occupying most of my daily activities and my career, it has become so unignorable that I feel a strong need to log my daily learning processes through my writing on this blog. Currently, I’ve been learning C language and how I can code programs that interact with the Linux kernel, which is the core fundamental skill that anyone in this field may need at some point.

So, along with my traditional ethical writing, my tech writing will be one of the fundamental parts of Canvas of Dreams, and it’s inevitable.

Heading to the unknown

Global cremate crisis, covid, the Ukraine war, US-China tensions, unstoppable inflation, and the world energy crisis… We’re in the middle of the world crisis and are heading to the unknown. In such dark age, I personally have always felt some kind of undeniable fear – I may lose my employment. And this has begun way before covid. One of the major reasons I chose the path to be a programmer is based on this fear (but don’t get me wrong, I love coding and I love the process of gaining new skills.).

So, this is something to do with the previous topic, but my blogging style also corresponds to my crucial need for self-improvement in terms of my skill set. To improve my skill set and my knowledge, STEM helped me a lot to achieve something I’ve always been waiting for to happen for many years: career opportunities and deep interactions with the world of logic, mathematics, and computers.

My undeniable fear for the future directed me all the way up to this point.

Afterthoughts

So, all in all, this is my current life. I have to admit that life is not perfect and I have so much room for improvement. There are my life-level of home-works I have to finish. But I’m aware my life has been on its incremental but steady progress.

Hope you also find your own journey and goal you’re heading to. Life is short, dream big. It’s maybe time to start walking again.