“If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.”
― E.B. White
Hi, it’s been a while since I last updated my blog. So, where have I been? Well, long story short, I’ve been through a lot during the past two months. And this overdue post is really hard to write.
There were full of ups and downs. Breakup. Struggle, and depression. 2019 overall was full of hopes, encounters, and farewells. The last two months of this year were especially challenging and depressive.
The very reason behind all of those depressive thoughts was my personal life that strongly disabled my motivation to keep moving forward. Due to an unexpected misfortune that happened out of the blue, I fell into depression. I didn’t feel like I was living. I was only existing, watching my world crumbling around me without care.
But I have to remind myself that I’m at least not alone. I have my family who cares, and friends with whom I can share my feelings. Maybe I should appreciate what I have right now instead of crying over what I lost. I may need to let go of the past and forgive myself. I’m in no way change the past, but change the present.
Maybe life isn’t about how hard it can hit me. It’s maybe about how hard I can be hit and still continue to move on. I failed at this time, but it’s not the end of the world. And this idea could be relevant to you all as well.
It’s okay to fail and make some mistakes as long as you don’t hurt anyone. We’re never perfect or perfectible. With tries and errors, you can figure it out someday. Small steps you make on a day-to-day basis will eventually get us there, I believe.
So, what do you think about it? How did you get through difficult days? And if you’re in a difficult situation right now, what would you do to overcome the conflict and move on? Hope you can enjoy your challenges. I’ll do my best too to get through these difficult days.
Here are some shots I photographed with a newly bought fisheye lens on my Pixel 4 XL.
